I’m sorry Tumblr
But I won’t be blogging for a while.
I am fighting some inner demons and I need to recover.
Being a fitblr and working at a gym is too much pressure and is very triggering for me as I need to make my relationship with food healthy again and not be SO scared of calories and carbs.
I will return. Better than ever.
Rolled my damn gumby ankle again, really got to work on strengthening it :/
My lower back doesn’t hurt as much when I squat and I can feel my mid back activating more as well as my glutes in my new program. Glutes are taking the load more instead of my back, and in rows etc my mid back is taking the load more instead of my shoulders coming up and my traps taking a lot of it.
Knew something was off with me since this morning, didn’t feel good from about 6am. Had so many people tell me ‘you look tired and a bit pale’ yeah thanks for that! Fast forward 12 hours and I’ve been throwing up and feel awful. What is wrong with me argh no training today :(
1. 1/2 cup oats and sugar free maple syrup, coffee
2. beans and 150g turkey, 1 tbsp peanut butter
3. 100g chicken, 1/2 cup rice and beans
4. protein mug cake and tablespoon of almond butter, 1/2 coffee
5. shiritaki (slimpasta) noodles with 2 egg whites stir fried in,
and half of a yogurt muesli bar - oopsies - was craving something sweet and nutty :(
Just writing this out because i felt like i didn’t eat so great today but looking back that’s pretty damn good. Minus the stupid muesli bar lol.
Training today was Muay Thai 1hr clinch and knee drills.
Considering going lower carb and having refeeds more often than every 10 days..I guess I’ll weigh myself tomorrow and see how I go, feel like I’ll still be 60kg though! My body is very stable and I haven’t changed that much in my diet apart from refeeds which I have done once. So i’ll do another on friday, see if my weight drops after that.
I am so stressed
I feel like I’m going to kill someone.
It’s just one thing after another after another after another.
That point when
It’s the last prac exam of my degree today and I’m not really stressed this morning about it because once I walk out it’s done and I just have the final to do.
22 days until freedom and I can have a break and do something with my life and see my friends again and train muay thai every day! My gym for thai is moving like 10 minutes away from me instead of the 20-25 i currently travel depending on traffic.
My boyfriend is being a dickhead. Hah. Joy. I don’t got time for this at the moment. Ain’t nobody got time for that.
Protein mug cakes
are actually the best.
So far I like chocolate with peanut butter ‘icing’ and strawberry with almond butter ‘icing’
I usually just put a scoop of protein in a mug and add water until it is cake batter like consistency and put it in the microwave for 1.5 minutes and it’s done. I did try to make it with an egg white and some milk and water but it turns out a little too gooey and strange, with just water it’s more cake-like :)